We headed up to North Ogden earlier this week for some post-Christmas family time! It was great that so many people were able to come. It was Grandpa and Grandma Berning, Grant and Kristen and their family, Brian, Todd, Daniel and Teresa and their family, and us. We had a scrumptious dinner and then opened presents. It was a great evening and I was really glad we could go up.
The next day was probably the coldest, windiest day I have ever experienced! Oh my goodness, I seriously felt like Jacob was going to blow away if I wasn't holding onto him. We had hoped to go sledding but that was definitely not going to happen. So instead we went to the Treehouse Museum. It was a great children's museum.
We had a great time...that is...until we didn't. Jacob totally lost it. All of a sudden we had the tantrum of all tantrums. Jacob has definitely had his share of tantrums at home but we have been very blessed to have never had one in public...until this day. It was horrible. There is nothing like an entire room staring at you while you take your screaming child away. And I am not exaggerating, the entire room. And I can't blame them, I probably would have too. It was one of those moments when you know every mother is just thinking, "oh my goodness, I am so glad it is not me."
I thought if I just took him away from the area that he would calm down and I would be able to reason with him. However, it was not meant to me. And of course, we were on the top floor so I had to walk through the whole museum with my screaming child. I was embarrassed. I was very embarrassed. And when I get embarrassed, I cry, which then only makes me more embarrassed because then I am crying.
The snowball effect.
We got to the car (and luckily didn't blow away) and I sat down with Jacob while I was crying, he said he was sorry, and we headed back home. Of course, I continued to cry the whole way home. And by that point it was just a combination to embarrassment and just that "bad mom" feeling. That feeling that if I had just done something different than I could have avoided such an outburst. I had heard people say that they had to leave a restaurant or the grocery store because of a tantrum but you just never think it is going to happen to you.
Well...I guess I get to join the ranks.
The thing was that I was never mad at Jacob. I knew we had been pushing him too far. We had just moved a week and a half before, had Christmas and now we were again away from home and it had all just been too much. I understood. And the thing was, we went home and he went down for his nap and was a perfect little angel the rest of the day.
Parenting is hard sometimes. It sometimes doesn't go the way you want it too. But I guess all you can do is start over the next day and try your best.
It unfortunately put a quick end to our trip with family. But we still had a great time nonetheless and are grateful that we are closer and can do these
get-togethers more!