The last couple weeks I've been reading Worth the Wrestle by Sheri Dew. I cannot recommend this book enough! I felt like every paragraph I was thinking..."YES!". She articulates her thoughts so well and I really enjoyed her perspective. This book has brought on so much reflection and I am grateful for that.
In the last chapter, Sheri talks about an interview she conducted with Randall Wallace who wrote the screenplay to Braveheart and several other films (mostly war movies). She asked him why he had written so many movies about war. He replied, "I don't think of them as war movies...I write love stories. I want to know what a man or woman loves enough to fight for."
Isn't that an amazing perspective?!
Sheri goes on in her book to say:
"Perhaps that sentiment is the very essence of being willing to engage in the wrestle: to demonstrate to ourselves and to the Lord that we care about Him and His gospel enough to fight, or wrestle, to grow in knowledge and in faith.
There are many things that are worth the wrestle.
It is worth wrestling to understand God's power and how He gives us access to it.
It is worth wrestling to have a deepening understanding and testimony of the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, His infinite Atonement, and the healing power that can flow through Him to those who believe in Him.
It is worth wrestling to understand priesthood power and how that power operates in the lives of both men and women.
It is worth wrestling to learn the language of revelation and then to seek revelation regularly.
It is worth wrestling to gain a testimony that Joseph Smith was a prophet, and that he was the Lord's instrument who ushered in the dispensation of the fulness of times.
It is worth wrestling to know that the living prophet is the Lord's mouthpiece. His ordained servant who holds and exercises all priesthood keys, and that the members of the First Presidency and Quorum of the Twelve Apostles are prophets, seers, and revelators.
It is worth wrestling to gain a personal witness that the Book of Mormon is the word of God, and that ancient prophets foresaw our day and recorded the doctrine, truths, and spiritual patterns that would help us negotiate the unique challenges of these last days.
It is worth wrestling to understand the gifts that come from the gift of the Holy Ghost, including the availability of spiritual gifts.
It is worth wrestling to understand the ministering of angels and why Elder Jeffrey R. Holland counseled us to "ask for angels to help us" when we are in need of extra courage, strength, peace, and aid.
It is worth wrestling to understand the plan of salvation and why the family as God decreed it is at the center of the plan.
It is worth wrestling to understand the distinctive gifts and divine endowments of both women and men as well as the unique and vital contributions of all in building the kingdom.
It is worth wrestling to understand and learn how to discuss complex social issues where our doctrine and society's views differ widely, and to do so in a spirit of cooperation and kindness but also candor.
It is worth wrestling to understand how to keep the covenants we have made while living peacefully in a world that increasingly rejects truth and condemns religious belief and practice as provincial, parochial, and in some cases even dangerous.
It is worth wrestling to understand how to live as men and women of God.
It is worth wrestling to be willing to ask the right questions, questions such as "What is Thy will (regardless of the situation we may find ourselves in)? What would Thou have me do? What would Thou have me say? How would Thou have me feel about a circumstance or outcome or desire?" Sometimes accepting the answers to such questions can require a wrestle."
(Worth the Wrestle by Sheri Dew)
I loved that. All of it. In particular, that last paragraph, was what I felt like her book focused on. That having questions isn't a bad thing, in fact, it's a good thing! It's an opportunity to grow and expand in our spirituality. But the tricky part (can be) in accepting the answers to those questions.
I am grateful for the knowledge that I have received through the Holy Spirit. It brings me peace. It is more a part of me and who I am than anything else.